from 16 January 2009 to 16 February 2009

its been 1 month since u left me .
in this 1 month i pushing myself to go on with my life without u .
i miss u so much till its hurt me and make me cry .
but after all , i need to face the fact that ur gone now .
smtms i feel like u are not gone forever , u just go out and meeting some friends or go home to ur parents but didnt have the chances to text or call me up .
but that smtms is just to comfort myself from being more sad then i am .
its been really hard for me in this 1 month , ive been through loads of problem and without u to be shared with .
i afraid that im gonna forget u if i find my own life .
im afraid of lots of things now .
its make me wanna cry if i think of u too much .
i cant do anything rite .
u are up there . i am down here .
but we will meet again someday , one day .
i miss and love u so much AHMAD RIDZUAN ;)